Saturday, December 31, 2011

crucially

there is no respite / there is not even one day that I can call my own / when I don't have to be responsive to the needs (wants?) of my family, or the users ...

Friday, December 30, 2011

Thursday, December 29, 2011

faith

in #god ...

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

relaxed

not really / trying to position boundaries / in readiness (not yet) for the new year ...

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

a walk

would have improved yesterday ...

Monday, December 26, 2011

nearly

didn't blog to-day ...

Sunday, December 25, 2011

unto us

a son is given ...

Saturday, December 24, 2011

Friday, December 23, 2011

holiday

traffic mayhem @fortkinnaird ...

Thursday, December 22, 2011

not so quiet

had to pull back ...

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

quiet

keep going ...

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

constant theme

those who think that both parents should work should come up with the solution for what to do about children who don't want to get up ...

Monday, December 19, 2011

intermission

soon be taking the c-a-t-s to the v-e-t ...

Sunday, December 18, 2011

keeping going

really, really don't know what's right ...

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Friday, December 16, 2011

virus

maximising its spread ...

Thursday, December 15, 2011

incredibly

difficult ...

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

putting off

reading my email ...

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Monday, December 12, 2011

broken

off work, sick, at home ...

Sunday, December 11, 2011

low

in some ways, these days, sunDay afternoons are worse than monDay mornings ...

Saturday, December 10, 2011

it would be good

if david cameron was as attentive to the voices of the poor as he is to those of the rich ...

Thursday, December 08, 2011

words fail

reached office, around 2 pm / saw that boss had phoned, a few minutes before / called back / was told to go home ...

Wednesday, December 07, 2011

not great

it's only five past nine, and already I'm feeling overwhelmed ...

Tuesday, December 06, 2011

tired

realising just how tired I am ...

Monday, December 05, 2011

monDay mornings

am I allowed to say - an abomination ...

Sunday, December 04, 2011

first snow

trying not to be anxious ...

Saturday, December 03, 2011

I disagree

I believe that the Church of Scotland is wrong to oppose gay marriage ...

Friday, December 02, 2011

contrast

from a secular university, to an evangelical meeting ...

Thursday, December 01, 2011

mental health

How often do mental health professionals inhibit the error messages (for example, by prescribing drugs) instead of trying to solve the problem?

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

not striking

to-day, anyway ...

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Monday, November 28, 2011

tired

really, really tired ...

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Lee Scoresby


and his flying machine ...

Saturday, November 26, 2011

no photo

or photos, taken / did to-day really happen ...

Friday, November 25, 2011

taking a step back

there is still stuff people want me to fix, or to do, for them / but it's lunchtime / and the weekend is just 5 hours away / need to think what's reasonable, possible ...

Monday, November 21, 2011

cry for help

masquerading as the documentation for my annual development review ...

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Friday, November 18, 2011

away from the office

but not away from the computer ...

Thursday, November 17, 2011

not hated

by Jesus (can I say that?) ...

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

stepwise

it's a quarter past one ...

Monday, November 14, 2011

waiting

unresolved / it's dark outside ...

first day back at work after a week off / am I coping? I really don't know ...

Friday, September 30, 2011

scream

curling around, then up / despair, horror, even / no longer expecting a resolution
hope / surely, by now, there would be evidence
and so, the screaming continues
silently ...

Friday, September 16, 2011

so

the new Blogger doesn't support Opera (the browser) / I suppose that if you're trying to promote your own (derivative) browser, you're not going to encourage people to use the genuine innovator ...

Thursday, August 18, 2011

crisis

on day two ...

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Monday, August 15, 2011

habakkuk

a prophet, witnessing destruction ...

Sunday, August 14, 2011

sunDay

trying to tidy my room ...

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Friday, August 12, 2011

friDay

half day / walking away ...

Thursday, August 11, 2011

drained

but there's work to be done ...

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

when people have nothing to lose

and are excluded, what happens ...

Monday, August 08, 2011

Saturday, August 06, 2011

God loves me

it doesn't always feel like it ...

Friday, August 05, 2011

company

having spent this week adapting to being alone, to-day I am working in an office with two occupants ...

Thursday, August 04, 2011

confidence

I lack confidence / perhaps I should just decide to be confident (ignoring all the mistakes I am likely to make) ...

[by the way: this is truly inspiring]

Wednesday, August 03, 2011

as summer ends

the academic year begins (again) ...

Tuesday, August 02, 2011

the lull

before the storm ...

Monday, August 01, 2011

essentially

there is no-one I can freely talk with ...

Sunday, July 31, 2011

prioritise

just wait one moment / I have two jobs to do / I can only do one of them / so, sensibly, I prioritise / which means that one of them doesn't get done / which means I get shouted at ...

(probably better just to do both jobs (badly)) ...

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

healing

another difficult word ...

Monday, July 25, 2011

probably

from my son's point of view, yesterday's deal wasn't particularly advantageous ...

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Sad

Watching the news from Norway ...

Friday, July 22, 2011

rest

we'll see - at least, I shall be away from the university ...

Thursday, July 21, 2011

ending

and beginning ...

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

triage

not everybody who wants help (to-day) will get it ...

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

crisis, again

with two people working here, we were emerging from the crisis / but we're back to one ...

Sunday, July 17, 2011

sabbath

people used to give things up on a Sunday (as children, we were not allowed to play card games) / more recently, I read of someone who chose not to use her computer / but these are negative / do they promote positive rest (and recreation)?

Saturday, July 16, 2011

rain

and Matthew wants bacon (which we have) and eggs (which I'd have to get from the shop) ...

Friday, July 15, 2011

Thursday, July 14, 2011

down to earth

a scary day, at work, yesterday ...

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

interesting times

as in, may you live in ...

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

tell someone

but if nobody wants to listen ...

Monday, July 11, 2011

despair

it's quite simple / day after working day of not knowing if I can cope ...

Sunday, July 10, 2011

all together again

thankfully, although it does bring challenges ...

Saturday, July 09, 2011

trust

the cats were keen on my company this morning, until I brought out the frontLine Combo ...

Friday, July 08, 2011

a new effort

no reason why I shouldn't update this blog more regularly (except for the small matter of thinking of what to write) ...

Wednesday, July 06, 2011

the good thing

about this blog is that I don't expect anybody to comment ...

Sunday, July 03, 2011

being honest

Daughter's been in hospital for 3 days. She was supposed to be having her operation on Thursday, home on Friday. It's Sunday morning - I'm drinking a welcome (black) coffee, and seeing no end to this. The daughter has just been sick - will the doctors want to keep her in for another day?

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Rose


These days, a welcome sight ...

Friday, May 20, 2011

stay foCused

but so tired ...

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Flowers


Colour's not right ...

Monday, May 16, 2011

smiley face

which is real? what people see, or what I say when nobody's listening (or write, when nobody's reading) ...

Sunday, May 15, 2011

generation

As a lad, I attended church. I didn't have a choice.

Am I wrong to respect my son's wish not to attend church? It means that, generally, I can't attend church either.

Can one be a Christian, and not go to church?

Saturday, May 14, 2011

sufficient unto the day

is the evil thereof (one of those phrases which (if you're of a certain age) sticks in the mind) ...

It's a saying of Jesus; echoed by Dale Carnegie (How to make friends and influence people) in "How to stop worrying" as: live life in daytight compartments.

But what if the task list will take more than a day to complete? Prioritise, I guess. The first dress rehearsal for Bugsy Malone is on Monday (yes?) - so whatever is required for then - costume, words, makeup (do my best - don't want to let anyone down).

But the grass is growing, there's a pile of stuff on my desk, I need to sort out our finances, I've brought home an installer for the microSoft Office, etc

But first, get dressed, and have breakfast (mundane) ...

Friday, May 13, 2011

Brooks' Law

More acute when you're an aspie - the overhead of managing the relationship can negate the benefit of being assisted ...

Thursday, May 12, 2011

half Day

Given the choice, I'd rather work the morning, and have the rest of the day off, than take the morning off, with the prospect of working that afternoon ...

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

proPhetic

Mitch Kapor (around Chandler 0.5): "I know we are going to come out with something great. I just don't know how many more turns of the crank it's going to take."

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

capability Policy

Managers are responsible for:
- Ensuring employees have a manageable workload
Received an email from HR - one of the links from the highlighted web page was to Capability Policy.

When I received my diagnosis (Asperger's Syndrome), I was full of hope - we had found the key - the guiding principle which would enable us to fit me into a working environment which allowed for those areas which I find difficult - and could recognise that I have particular strengths.

forLorn hope ...

Monday, May 09, 2011

exHaustion

What if I was (had been) honest with my new boss? If I'd dared to say to her that - no way am I happy - let somebody else do this job - please put me somewhere else ...

But a year ago, I said that to my then boss, and look at what happened (I don't think that I shall ever again dare to say that I'm not coping - but, perhaps, one day, it will be obvious - to someone) ...

Friday, May 06, 2011

aspiNet

Not sure how to put this into words - I have Asperger's Syndrome - I am bad at relationships - in some ways, the Internet is a different domain where I am less bad (or, possibility, I am just as bad, but don't know it) ...

Thursday, May 05, 2011

Focus

At the start of the day, I need to focus. If there is a task to be tackled, that (surely) comes before the unknowns - the things that may be good news, or may be bad news ...

Wednesday, May 04, 2011

Daily

Let's see if we can rescuscitate this blog (with daily updates - not necessarily every day - but not more often than once a day) ...

Monday, February 28, 2011

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Sore throat

I haven't had a day off sick since joining Operational Services (there's a actually a task in the pipeline which I'm quite looking forward to, but there's plenty of calls I'd rather not have to deal with) ...

Friday, February 18, 2011

friDay night

the weekEnd begins ...

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

So

Shouldn't I just walk away ...

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Cruelty

take a conscientious individual / give him a job which he cannot possibly do / watch ...

Monday, February 14, 2011

Sunday, February 13, 2011

no Choice

But to continue ...

Saturday, February 12, 2011

sLeep

Would be nice ...

Friday, February 11, 2011

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Romeo and Juliet

Prokofiev's ballet, danced by Ballet West at the Brunton Theatre ...

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

anXiety

Fudge was behind the toilet door - hoping that she's OK ...

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

Love, love changes everything

Tea was delicious, this evening ...

Monday, February 07, 2011

Sunday, February 06, 2011

Shostakovich 4

An opportunity (both children rehearsing "Annie") to listen to another of my extensive collection of BBC Music Magazine cover CDs - Vassily Sinaisky conducting the BBC Phil in Shostakovich's rambling 4th Symphony. It's a long, but rewarding listen - so much so that, with limited time before I drive out to collect the children, and wanting a cup of tea, I was walking around the house carrying a portable CD player, wearing headphones, and colliding with a door - hopefully, no damage done ...

Saturday, February 05, 2011

Planets

Listened to a recording of Holst's "the Planets" to-day - ironic, that just when some composers thought that it would be a good idea to add Pluto to the line up, it was de-planetised ...

Friday, February 04, 2011

imPossible

Don't usually blog about work, but to-day, I've been 'assigning', which means passing calls to other people - and I know how much work needs to go into each call. The arithmetic, surely, is simple - if, in the course of a day (a Friday, when you'd expect things to be quieter), each person receives more than a day's work to do, we have a problem (unless to-day was unusually busy, which I doubt) ...

Thursday, February 03, 2011

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

Tuesday, February 01, 2011

maybe Solas

Camping? or finding a b'n'b?

Monday, January 31, 2011

on the other Hand

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
John 3:16 - this is from the Authorised Version, also known as the King James Version ...

Sunday, January 30, 2011

aTheist

I'd rather believe that God isn't there, than that he is, and he's horrible ...

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Birches

I love these trees ...
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eXalt

a Tough week; but, hopefully, things will improve ...

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Metaphor

The red light is on, indicating low battery ...

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

being Strict

A queue is a queue is a queue - has anyone ever operated a service where the last person to arrive is the first to get served?

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Monday, January 24, 2011

bRidge


Sometimes, I think that the JCMB looks a bit like a (battle)ship ...
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Sunday, January 23, 2011

cRash

Yesterday, I was excited, hopeful; to-day, disillusioned, despondent (realistic) ...

Saturday, January 22, 2011

exHausted

Doesn't bode well for the day ...

Friday, January 21, 2011

a Slow day

Thankfully, so far ...

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Dark morning

Difficult to summon up any kind of enthusiasm ...

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

unReLiable

I did try to post earlier, but it hasn't appeared ...

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Saturday, January 15, 2011

DC-3


DC-3
Originally uploaded by Clackety
An awkward crop ...

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

winTer

is tough, because by the time you've finished work (or, done as much work as you're going to do), it's dark ...

Monday, January 10, 2011

Princes St


Homeward bound - back to work to-morrow ...

Sunday, January 09, 2011

tollCross


in lieu of panTo ...

Saturday, January 08, 2011

aChievement

The children and I spent this afternoon doing a jigsaw ...

Friday, January 07, 2011

Thursday, January 06, 2011

Trying to be positive

Not particularly successfully ...

Wednesday, January 05, 2011

Back at work

Struggling, already ...

Tuesday, January 04, 2011

pur(r)Pose


pur(r)Pose
Originally uploaded by Glaswegian

The New Year period is an opportunity to review, evaluate; but there needs to be freedom, resource. If life (particularly at work) is a constant struggle to survive, then trying to make positive changes is going to fail.

I made a serious mistake last year, but this is a new year ...

Monday, January 03, 2011

Hitting the sales

Traditional early January activity - although it was a lovely day - a traditional (two days after) new year's day walk might have been healthier ...

Sunday, January 02, 2011

Positive change

If you make a change - how do you know whether it will make things worse, or better?